life has changed a lot. the day I first left Ranchi for Chennai. my life has a been a rollercoaster ever since. people have come and gone. Few became very important but as usual no one was able to be there unswervingly. I was tired of giving importance to every new person every other day, and the entire thing confused me too. Who actually is important, who do i really care for. Is he my friend? Am i really answerable to her? Is that person really allowed to ask me so many questions? And while all this I kept learning, and after a certain point of time I was tired of learning also... at the end of every day i was not left alone my reckless life haunted me. I had loads of people around me, to comfort me, to scorn me, to motivate and demoralize me and this viciousness went on and on and on.
train journeys are again long and tedious. Especially the long ones, like from Ranchi to Chennai. Two and a half fucking days. Damn! How irritated i was when i entered the compartment and found that even the fans were not working and to top everything I had a sick book with me "Night At A Call Centre". But guess what? That was a journey which I never forgot and my destiny has never allowed me to forget it. One person who has reinstilled my faith in sanity and mankind and goodness. I believed in self-annihilation. As in people around the globe do things which eventually result in their own downfall. Selfishness, jealousy and such others are examples a bit philosophical but true. I do not say that I am a completely changed after the train journey, but yes the changes which I went through were really important for me. Have always been a loner, not really in the real meaning as I was quite a social person, but it was all superficial. I was there for the heck of it, laughed and did everything came back and would never want to go back... but always went. That's how my life always been ever since.... but then there is a positive force in my life now... and i never want it to leave me. Life is a mess and will always be, but at least with this new addition I don't mind any number of messes, just because I know I am not alone!
3 comments:
Well well well. Looks like the beginning of a wirter in making
and i am sure i am not good enough to advice you but you wander a lot when you write.. keep focus.. you have everything to become someone to look for in bookstores someday..
The piece is not only excellently written, but also provokes the reader to think...
A good article is always the one which successfully touches the heart, or memory of the reader. I really liked the bit on 'giving importance to....' Its so true, and it hurts so much when you give importance to somebody who takes it as a kind of entertainment...
Dev, your article does this beautifully. Continue writing sans the *^#$ words (Oh! How could a gyani grandpa with grey hairs fail to preach ha ha ha...)
And yes! May (the positive) 'force' be with you always... forever...
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