This is not an intellectual moment. This is a very personal and awaited second of my life, which is why I am penning it down so that I can remember it for the rest of my life, and also publishing it as I just want to.
This is the golden period of my life. Or so I like to think. There are still issues which I need to sort out in my personal as well as professional life, but it still feels as if the best time of my life.
I have not got this appreciation and this surge of ideation that I am going through right now. If you had known me a year ago (a lot of people who do that will read this.. so they know.. they would have found me sitting with a tea and smokes and then again tea and smoke and ‘n’ number of teas and smokes in the canteen or a small ‘chai’ shop and found me cribbing and abusing the system or someone in the system. And later in solitude, I would be cursing myself and crying or just fight with my guy and then cry and then blame it all on him... that’s the best part. Right now, it is not so.
I am laughing, I am happy, I am thinking, positively thinking about everything. Few weeks ago, trust me this was not the condition, I was, as I said earlier, grumpy with a tea and smoke! But everything changed in the meeting the other day with my seniors when they handed me over with a show called ‘Goodlife Mantra’. It was supposed to be a half an hour show and a daily one that too. It was revamped. And I was supposed to be producing the entire thing by myself. The revamped version was supposed to be an outdoor shoot with a new topic everyday!
Where would I find a new topic daily? Where would the guests come from? What will be the content for every new show? And what will be the format? OK one by one… no format was the mantra for Goodlife mantra; I decided not to block the show in any format. There will be no format and that was the format! And thereafter, after finding solution to the one problem everything fell in place. And after a month and a half of that meeting I have produced more than 30 shows and it was the highest trp generating show for the channel.
But that was not it; I had lot of issues while and when I was on location, when I was not on location. My anchor, my camera people, my assistant… you know the initial teething problems; and I prevailed over everything. Every small issue that came by was not that colossal any more. There was nothing bigger than the show and there will be nothing bigger than the show. Anchor was bad, but it became better, Loki had an issue but I knew I could not do it without him and I did’t have to because I made him stay back and he is the star now… and so on and so forth.
It is like, on a rainy day you are crossing a road. You have mud and splash all over your self. And then through that tedious and dirty journey you end up reaching a beautiful meadow… with green grass and a tree, and clear sky with sun shining high in the sky but it still be raining. And there is no dirt, no puddle, no mud, and no splash. And you'll be at the end of the world just enjoying the rain and thanking god that he (or whoever it is) gave you the opportunity. That is like romancing with life.
Just like a first date. Where you expect nothing, where you just give and receive, unconditionally. And that first eye contact, and that first touch and then the first kiss… yes. I kissed life! And it was wonderfully weird. Just so amazing!
And just like the first dates get over really soon, I know even this wont stay for a very long time, that’s exactly why I am writing this piece so that when tomorrow I don’t go through such a time, I may have something to remind me that life is not always the same and it will surprise you at some point and that’s why it is the best affair you can ever have. An affair with life! And just like every first thing that you do doesn’t remain first, I want myself to remember that this show was the first and all the subsequent ones can never be the so…
While I finish writing this, I am crossing my fingers and hoping not to jinx whatever good is happening to me doesn’t get over too soon… so don’t jinx it and don’t read it too many times..
Regards!
